Change

They say change is good. I say we will see. My father passed away yesterday morning. I will miss him, i will miss the way he was when i was a child. So loving and kind always there for movies and games, taking me shopping for school clothes. I used to fake sick to stay home from school so i could be with my dad for the day doing yard work or errands. He would even try to bribe me to go occasionally with a barbie, it never worked. He took us camping and fishing, he taught me to love Gods creatures. i wish he had spent more time with us as adults and had gotten to know his grand kids better. i am grateful we had 2 weeks this past summer to be with him. We took a family vacation with my sister and her family and i will always cherish the memories we have from there. My dad has left me in charge of his affairs and this is quite an undertaking because he left me no information on where anything is or the name of his attorney. I haven't been well and neither has my sister and this is a lot of added stress for me. Trying to fulfill is wishes with no money is almost impossible. I am relying on the lord to help me get through this, with strength, courage and faith i will make it. It will be hard but they say change is good. i miss my dad.
Scent ( Fall Fantasy)
Sense ( give your children your important papers or tell them where they are)

No Dessert Tonight

Today has been a little crazy and very tiresome. I had an appointment at the social security building in salt lake. After i arrived for my scheduled appointment. I was told it had been changed to the 25th. I told them that the appointment was not made by me but someone who was acting as a representative of me, and did not have the authority to do so, after a 30 minute wait they did see me and i was very grateful. It was a long process and sitting that long was very hard. I was so relieved when it was over and i could make the 20 minute walk back to the car. ( it only takes 2 minutes for the average person). I was exhausted when i got home and still needed to meet with the insurance guy in relation to the accident. I was pleased to hear he would come to my home instead of me leaving again. I was so tired and the pain was increasing so i didn't eat anything but three sweets orange sticks and a handful of peanuts( they were close to my bed). Dinner was supposed to be brought in and i was looking forward to real food, something i haven't had in a few days due to feeling so crappy. It was due to arrive at 5 its now 6:59 and guess what? No dinner, I'm really frustrated and very hungry, i don't feel well enough to make it to the kitchen so i guess this is another night of no dinner which really sucks. I know it wasn't forgotten intentionally, unfortunately that doesn't really help me out. my mom suggested crackers and cheese or a can of refried beans. I know she meant well with these but neither is a great dinner nor do they sound good, so no dessert tonight.
Scent (No Place Like Home)
Sense ( keep track of your day to take a meal to a friend)

The Long Road

I haven't posted in a bit because i was in the hospital. We were in an auto accident on the 11th (my birthday) and i spent 5 days in the trauma unit at IMC. i was released in time to attend my father in laws funeral and sing there as had been requested by him before he passed away. I learned so much about him and have more respect and love for him then i had before. I feel like i even made some progress in mending a broken friendship with my sister in law. I have been struggling with the pain and its very hard for me to walk right now, but I'm confident that with the lords help i will make a full recovery. My mom and sister have been so supportive and my mom stayed in the hospital all 5 days. so much has happened this week. My sister and my father both had surgery yesterday and are both doing well. Im so glad. My dad had a double bi pass with a valve replacement and my sister had endometriosis (yes i spelled it wrong)she also had cysts and adhesion's removed and is home recovering. Dad is out of ICU and is doing as well as expected. It been a long and busy road for us this week but im sure we are all on the mend. Heart, mind, body and soul.
Scent (Evergreen Garland)
Sense (watch out for other drivers)

What a Day

Kira has been harassed by her soon to be x husband. I'm not sure why its so fun to torment a women, but i guess for him it is. He has broken her belongings and stolen her debit card, he has threatened her and said he would come after me. he has come back to her every day since he left just to scare her. Wow does he have problems, apparently he is using drugs and having an affair with an old girlfriend. Im not sure why he even got married if he was going to throw it away after less than 2 months. We have spent the day finding her a safe place and calling banks and police, both of which i could do without. With all the excitement of the day i missed parent teacher conference for Jaren. I left a message with the teacher to reschedule so we will see. I was able to watch my sweet nephew today, and give my sister a much needed break, be has been a pill for her since his surgery, but today he was a total joy and was so good for me. We had a fun time together he is the cutest 2 year old and i adore him.
Scent (Red Currant)
Sense ( date for a long time)